Epiphany

Because I had been struggling with so many problems or what the bible calls "diverse" trials, I made a decision to get back to doing the things that I had done in the beginning of my walk of faith. I decided that I would set my alarm clock for 5:00 am, rise early to pray and spend some quiet time with God. The only problem was that after making the decision, I absolutely could not get up! For some strange reason I would awaken around 4 am!!! I would force myself to try to get back to sleep and by the time I finally dosed off, the alarm would ring for my 5 am wake-up and I would be exhausted. So I ended up going back to sleep and not getting up again until time to get dressed for work. And then the guilt would set in!!. This morning in the shower, I had an epiphany!! It occurred to me that perhaps the Lord wanted to meet with me on His time and not mine, especially since He was the one doing the waking! So tomorrow, when He touches me, regardless of what the clock says, I will rise a great while before day and meet my father in the garden.

A Whole Year

It is amazing to me that it has been almost a whole year since my last post! So much has happened, but so little has changed. I just recently celebrated my 49th birthday and had to take a long hard look at myself and my life. If ever there was time for a change, that time is now. So, once again, I set out on a journey to change what is not right with my life. I ask the Lord to lead me and guide me. Let me not lean to my own understanding. I truly recognize that apart from Him, I can do nothing. Thank you God for keeping me, my mind, my heart and more importantly my soul. Help me to release those things to you that are beyond my ability. Yes, Lord, I trust you! I am grateful that my life belongs to you and even though I don't always follow, I stray and stumble under my own will, I do love you! Forgive me and help me. Not my will, but thy will be done.